I don't know what to do. Apparently, I don't have a job anymore.
I turned in my badge and key card at the office Christmas party just after the baby was born. I had told them I would be back to work in February. I went to visit this week and again reiterated that. Well, I just got an e-mail from the office manager saying they didn't think I was coming back and that she thought they had already made offers to other people. So I e-mailed the partner in charge of hiring, and he said they've made an offer to one person, they needed four for the summer, and he would "let me know" if I had a job. WTF? I didn't interview anywhere else because I thought I already had a job. They made me to believe I already had a job. I can't believe this. I don't know what to do. I passed on both sets of OCI's, I haven't sent out any resumes. It's so late in the year, I don't even know where to begin to look.
I'm just so upset. I don't know what I did wrong. They obviously don't want me back, otherwise, there wouldn't be a question about it. There's never been a question about the other clerks returning. I can't believe this. I need the money, even if it isn't great money. And I really wanted to keep working there. I like working there. I feel like they used my "maternity leave" as an excuse to kick me out the door without actually letting me go. But if they didn't want me back, why didn't they say so in the fall, when I could have sought other opportunities? What am I supposed to do now?
I'm terrified I won't be able to find anything this late in the year, and we definitely need the money. We're still struggling to pay off the medical bills, they were higher than I thought they would be. I just don't know what to do. I'm so angry and frustrated, and hurt. I don't need this right now, I really don't.